Ijinkan Aku

Ijinkan aku
mencintai-Mu
bersama hatiku yang gundah
membawa mimpi
ijinkan aku
merindukan-Mu
biar pedang menusuk akal
memburai angan
ijinkan aku
menjadi kekasih-Mu
dengan jiwa kotorku
membaur nafsu
ijinkan aku, ya Tuhanku
menitip mesra rindu
bersama sujudku yang tak lagi genap
dan dzikirku yang tak lagi merdu
ijinkan aku, wahai penguasa semesta
ijinkan jiwaku menuju-Mu
dan berbaring di bawah kasih-Mu
bersama air mataku yang tak lagi bening
bersama hatiku yang tak lagi bersih
ijinkan aku, ijinkan aku
mati untuk-Mu

Bebas

Aku ingin terbang
bebas...
Kuingin kepakkan sayap hitamku
lepas...
Aku bukan merak
bukan juga elang
angsa,ataupun bangau
aku hanyalah gagak
hitam legam
tapi,
aku ingin jadi diriku sendiri
bukan sesuatu yang penuh kepalsuan
biarlah
walaupun hanya seekor gagak
AKU INGIN BEBAS!

Told Me

They told me to do this
they told me to do that

they told me to be like this
they told me to be like that

they told me to do something,
even if I cant do
they told me to be like something,
even if I cant be

they told me I must became:
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even if I cant

Morning, and all they told me is about:
perfection
perfection
perfection

Noon, and all they told me is about:
perfection
perfection
perfection

Evening, and all they told me is about:
perfection
perfection
perfection
Only perfection
perfection
perfection
perfction

All I have to do is to be like they said
because I have nothing to start with

I climb stairs of hell
building my own despair one by one
using my own sweets, tears, and bloods
because they told me so

And with every step I take
I'm become numb....
....and numb....
....and numb...

until there is nothing left inside me
only my own
pain,
sadness,
despair
selfisness
lonelyness

I'm become so numb
I can feel anything

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---------CANT TAKE ANYMORE--------

My Lord,
please take me with you
because,
I'm so tired

dont want to fight
anymore
dont want to pain
anymore

want to sleep
want to rest
.